I need the smell of summer.

I need its noises in my ear.

Last night we played in Dallas at Fat Daddy’s. Lets just say I walked in and they had Calm Before the Storm playing and I immediately knew the place was going to be fun. Not to mention we were asked to spray paint our myspace on the wall over the girls bathroom. The place had this punk down and dirty feel about it and it just felt good. The show was fun played to some quality kids, including oddly enough hardcore boys (like get in in the pit boys). We were followed up by some metal bands and lets just say I’ve never seen this style of 2 stepping in my life. At first I was like that is not even near right but then I realized I could appreciate the different style. And that sparked my brain. I think about how I tend to judge rather than respect the difference. I’ll see a person who dressed differently and go oh cool a bro. But really I should respect the fact that God put people on this earth who are different. If everyone was just like me I’d hate it, I would get burned out. I will work on this. For this evening and the next we are spending our time with the elders Easterwood who by the way are amazing. They live out in the middle of no where Oklahoma and I love it, well for a short period of time. The hustle and bustle of the city entices me but sometimes you just want to get away and this is a good refuge. I have the tendency to romanticize any moment into feeling as if I’m in a movie. I think this blinds me from reality. I over analyze the mess out of life I need to be content with getting by Its just a simple hello goodbye But I think about it all the time. My mind is a time traveling machine into the past, but I live life in the future. Spring forward into new possibilities. Don’t fall back on old habits. Start growing, the suns coming out.

This man is way too talented.

A friend of mine sparked my imagination when we talked about personalities and how she thought I should be tested. So of course I took a legit personality test and this is the description of what type of person I am (ENFJ). Parts of it I’m not sold on completely but some of it is spot on.

Tonight was, well different. The venue was pretty cool but everything seemed crammed and full of opportunities to become frustrated. Frustration was the battle for this evening with a rushed setup and a rushed set my link in the chain felt a little loose, a little off. After a hurried pack I gathered my thoughts and breathed a little. Frustration leads to a hardened heart and then tends to invoke a terrible attitude, and I don’t need that in life. Said a prayer and let it go. I think that’s just the best way to deal when things like that creep in. Tonight we drive. No place to stay because we have 2 shows in Dallas tomorrow, one being in a record store at 1 so the 5 hour trip needs to be made through the night. Honestly I like the adventure in the desperation.

For a good hour and a half I watched clouds out the window and couldn’t help feeling insignificant. I love those moments more than anything else in life. It is a different form of worship that I just can’t get enough. To think how I am just a small being on this earth of billions of beings and the God over all of it cares about me and my simple life, saved my little life. It is just something I can’t explain and can’t get enough of. Stare at the clouds tomorrow.

Exodus is becoming one of my favorite books in the bible. Seeing how Moses grows in confidence in his God is inspiring along with seeing how the Lord provides for his people. I’m only going across the country the Iseralites traveled the desert for 40 years. Life now is much simpler to reach for faith, so go for it.

I’m 22 and some people may say time is slipping away but it’s just beginning for this man.

“and you thought it would be funny, to keep me hanging in suspense.”

I am second.

This was playing in my head when I woke up.